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Ah, blog. Today is Wednesday and you know what that means? Some random disorganized hump day thoughts.

1) Emails from my dear! It was long and full of information! YAY! It also made me cry. Awh. He's doing okay out there. He's safe, and though things aren't all blue skies, he's making it through the days, and his Portuguese is improving. The food is good. That's a plus. haha. I'm glad to hear from him, but also crushed because there's another infinitely long week before I talk to him again.


2) College sucks. It's so stressful, and complicated, and giving me a knot in my shoulder that's giving me a headache. I am worried and scared and just completely overwhelmed and it's fine. Ha!!! I have no idea what I'm doing, and I am just praying that it all works out!! Please! Let it all work out. It seems so...huge. I feel like I am standing on the precipice of some huge cliff with these giant iron hell doors in front of me and everyone is like, "Go ahead! Move forward! Everything will be fine!" Agh! I want to throw a two-year-old tantrum and I'm trying way too hard to be cool.


3) I am Superman. I took one of those dumb facebook quizzes and it made me feel cool about myself. I really like Superman. I think he's cool. "You are a compassionate, goodhearted person who actively tries to make the world a better, safer place and believe that others should use their talents for the same goal. You value hard work and good moral values, which can make you seem boring or uptight to some people. However, in reality people respect you for standing by your values and are inspired by your positive example. Sometimes you feel as if you are sacrificing your personal needs and wants because of your devotion to your moral and just causes, but you always find the strength to do the right thing. You are a charismatic and capable champion of your cause and help people to embrace it." #mycauseisJesus


4) I am all alone. My friends and I are still friends but without Ben, who was the foundation to our group, we've kinda fallen apart. Taylor is out of town this week. But yesterday cute Rachel came over and we had a nice long heart to heart like we normally do. She is so sweet and I'm grateful for her in my life. Despite her visit, and my endlessly patient mother, and my family, I still can't shake the feeling of being alone in my experience. Like I don't have anyone who really understands. Of course, Jesus understands.


5) I adore the scriptures. I look forward to my study every day!! It's been so great to go through the Book of Mormon again; it provides me so much comfort and strength. The people were so amazing and I'm so grateful for their example. Right now I'm reading about the armies of Moroni and how they protected themselves from their enemies by fighting for what was right, keeping their faith in God, and wearing armor. What armor are we wearing today? What things are we doing today to become stronger, to keep our aim set, and protect ourselves? Sincere prayer is a good option.