I'm Still Talking

I finished my last post and I thought, "There are still a lot of things I want to say." So I'm going to say them, haha.

I'm grateful to know that the Lord loves me, flaws and all. I don't have to change for Him, or be someone else. He loves me perfectly, no matter what. I am still striving to become better, to do better, but I like kneeling down and knowing that I'm talking to someone who loves me unconditionally.

My sister is still beautiful! I still adore her! Every day I'm more grateful that we've gotten so close over this summer. She's one of my best friends. I love being around her, even though she's a total dork! (I hope you're reading this, grrl.) She's so spunky and weird and lovely and I can't believe all that fits in one human personality. I love her.

Ben is the best boyfriend ever. He's so patient with me, and all my selfish feelings. He listens. He loves. He seeks to be closer to God. He is a magnificent soul. We've been spending a lot of time together lately too, and when I'm with him, I just feel safe. Time slows down for a minute, and all I can think about is my love for him. Sure, we're going through some hard times, and we squabble. We spend hours talking things through. At the end of the day, he always gives more of himself. Always! Give give give. He has this.. faith in us that sometimes I don't see. I wish I could be like him, so strong and trusting. I've been a total mess lately (as usual? haha) and he never blames me or complains. He just holds me on the doorstep. What a guy. What a guy!!

I love this blog. I love this laptop and the clicky sounds it makes when I write on this blog. Simple treasures.

I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. There's so much on my plate and I've just procrastinated all of it. It hasn't hit me yet, you know, that I'm leaving to live on my own soon and that I'm completely lacking life skills. I need to clean out my bedroom finally. And reschedule my college classes, and plans. Sigh. It's so overwhelming. I'll do better at that this week.

And by golly I love God! He's totally my best friend and confidant. I can't imagine life without His company and help. I know I can always talk to Him and that He listens and answers. Thank goodness for prayer. Thank goodness for mercy.

I think that's all now. At least for today, hahah