Hello blog! It's been awhile. Life is a bit more busy when you're responsible for making all your own meals, ha!
Life has definitely been moving at the speed of light these past couple weeks, which honestly I'm kind of grateful for! I am busy with schoolwork, and class, and watching more chick flicks than I ever have in my life (thank you, roommates). Just trying to tread water in a new phase of life is difficult! This is the first time I've ever had to balance finance with schooling with money with social life with taking care of myself! I sometimes feel like I'm drowning, but for the majority of the time I'm having a blast.
To all the teachers in high school that swore that college classes were nothing like high school classes, yooo hooo! Yes they are! It's like high school for grownups! There is nothing I'm learning so far that has been extraordinarily difficult. Mostly class just requires a good work ethic! Here's the real truth: college classes are so fun!! My history class especially, and poetry, I really sincerely enjoy! I love going to class!
I love my roommates too! Most of the time. They are such sweethearts. I am amazed by how talented they all are. Every girl in my apartment is gifted and beautiful, but they all come from such different backgrounds. The fact that we get along is either a mercy from God, or a miracle of college, or both. They are teaching me so much, and I am grateful I get to live with some of my best friends.
Speaking of teaching. I can feel myself changing. It simultaneously scares me to death, and liberates me. Things I've never liked before, I sudden find joy in. Things I really used to love are becoming less important. I've discovered how much I really love baking, stupid as that sounds. I somehow like romance movies? I live for a well written, informative textbook. I have no shame in dancing like an idiot through the apartment. The humor I find in innuendos is slowly disappearing. I am more of a homebody. Doing the dishes doesn't bother me anymore. I can look back at my past and see these elements of myself were present, just not pronounced. It's been an interesting adventure; through all the change in my life, I am changing personally as well.
Yet, as always, there are some things that simply don't change. At the top of that list, of course, is the Savior and my love for Him. In math class, we were given words such as wealth, fame, love, education, family, etc. and were required to choose our top five priorities from the list. Then, slowly, we were required cross out four of the words, and find which word was of ultimate importance to us. I found myself staring at the word "faith". The teacher then asked us what we were doing in our lives everyday to reach that goal. The gospel doesn't change. Scripture study continues to structure my life. Prayer continues to be a source of great comfort. The Lord continues to forgive me, every time. God continues to bless and prosper me. Jesus Christ is truly my safe haven in such a tumultuous time of life. He is the rock upon which I, and all people "must build our foundation." (Helaman 5:12) I could not do what I am doing without His support, and His infinite love for me. I know that the Lord is carrying me in the palm of His mighty hand. I just trust Him, and it works out in the end, always.
Taylor is another one of those things that hasn't changed. He has been my loyal friend for three years and he is still a good, patient listener and friend of mine. Despite the fact that we have very little in common, shared experience allows us to trust each other. My mom is still the same wonderful, genius of a woman, who seems to always know what to do with perfect certainty. She still cares for me, even when I am a couple hours away. Ben keeps firm hold of my heart. He still is the primary focus of all my daydreams. I can't believe it's already been over a month since he left. I think of him every day.
Life isn't so bad. I trust in Him, and I know everything will be alright.
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