My Destiny is in an Envelope

Right now, probably on my kitchen counter, lies a white envelope. A big one. Literally and figuratively.

I can't even right now.

My brain all day has been everywhere, crazy everywhere. Just one paper holds the name of a place that will change my life forever. It will guide me to people that will change me forever. It will open up new experiences that will touch my heart. It will lead me in a path that I never could have walked otherwise.

And I could change them. That's the exciting thing. I could change them. These people, I will love them with my whole heart, and I might get to change them forever as they are changing me. Standing as a witness of Jesus Christ, I can act as His hands and bring them the truth and change their course forever. I will love them, I already love them. Christ loves them, and He can use me to bring them light and joy and peace and hope. What could possibly be more fulfilling?!

painting by Yongsung Kim

I feel like I'm standing on the beach, and I'm about to see the ocean for the first time. A few years ago my family went to California, to the beaches. My siblings and I.. we're a little landlocked. I remember seeing the ocean. I knew what to expect; I've seen the movies. But it's something new and beautiful when you see it in real life. It is so blue, so so so blue. Really, like it's really blue. And HUGE! I can't even fathom the hugeness of the ocean. I know it's big, I do, but when you see it, and it just goes on forever and ever past the horizon! Just, wow!

Here I am with one envelope that's basically my first sight of the ocean. It's awesome, beautiful, I just know it will be beautiful, and huge, and blue! But I have no concept of what this mission is really going to be like. Is that gonna stop me from exploring the depths and the surfaces and enjoy all the beauty and difficulty of the ocean in 18 month gulp?! No way!!!

Tomorrow, I'm going to see the ocean.
Luckily the Lord walks on water.