The struggle is real, my friends. The struggle is real.
Although I'm having trouble seeing the future in a positive way right now, I know that if I trust the Lord He will "lead [me] by the hand, and give [me] answers to my prayers." I have to believe that that's true, that the gospel is true. I have to believe that everything will work out for good in the end.
The Lord doesn't forsake His children in their time of need. I know because I feel Him close to me when I need comfort. The Lord will not forget me now either.
I can do hard things through "Christ who strengtheneth me."
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Friday, June 20, 2014
My Darling Sister
This week as a family we went to Disneyland! Best place ever! We had a great time and even got to meet Minnie Mouse- twice!! I really loved the parades, the shows, and of course, the princesses. I love princesses. I was surprised by how much I really enjoyed California Adventure this time around. We also went to the beach, and Ruth and I got nasty sunburns! Luckily, this was kind of a blessing because it meant more bonding between me and my sister!
She was so brave and rode all the rides, we got to chat, share a bed, take a billion selfies in the car, and of course, of course fangirl over Ben and how cute he is! I sure missed him!! I was really grateful to spend some quality time with the little sister especially, but also with the rest of my family and my adorable little brother.
In the whole world, I wouldn't want any other family or any other friends than the ones I have right now! God has indeed blessed me by allowing families to be together forever in His eternal plan!
She was so brave and rode all the rides, we got to chat, share a bed, take a billion selfies in the car, and of course, of course fangirl over Ben and how cute he is! I sure missed him!! I was really grateful to spend some quality time with the little sister especially, but also with the rest of my family and my adorable little brother.
In the whole world, I wouldn't want any other family or any other friends than the ones I have right now! God has indeed blessed me by allowing families to be together forever in His eternal plan!
Friday, June 13, 2014
Peachy Keen
YAAAY! What a great day it is today!
Yesterday I had the fine opportunity of attending Lagoon with my friends! We had a great time! It was minorly stressful, but in the end we all got along, and rode all the good rides, and everything was dandy. It was a little dream come true for me cuz I got to spend part of the time with just Ben and I, and he is.. extraordinarily handsome. If you didn't know. I'm so grateful that he's a part of my life. He's my best friend, he's a wonderful listener and he's always chivalrous. Shoutout to Mama Platt who raised this great guy!!
Yesterday I had the fine opportunity of attending Lagoon with my friends! We had a great time! It was minorly stressful, but in the end we all got along, and rode all the good rides, and everything was dandy. It was a little dream come true for me cuz I got to spend part of the time with just Ben and I, and he is.. extraordinarily handsome. If you didn't know. I'm so grateful that he's a part of my life. He's my best friend, he's a wonderful listener and he's always chivalrous. Shoutout to Mama Platt who raised this great guy!!
It was great! Today we went to see How to Train Your Dragon 2. I laughed, I cried, it moved me, Bob. We went hiking, had a picnic, and played frisbee afterwards. It's been so nice to be with my friends, and spend quality time with them. God has surely blessed me with wonderful friends and a beautiful world to explore! I'm grateful to Him for the rock-rolling good times I've had lately!
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Growing Pains
I just woke up from another nightmare, which somehow included Maleficent brewing human flesh in my back yard, and sliding cake with messages written on it under my door, and horrible people putting dead fish, (whole dead fish!) on all my trees in my front yard. You know how terrible it is to look out your window and see dead fish bodies hanging in your trees?? It's disgusting!! How does my brain come up with this stuff???
Anyways. Besides the fact that I'm emotionally scarred.
I've been a not-so-happy-camper in the past twenty four hours. Reason being: growing pains. As my best friend and I are trying to figure out how to adapt to the mission coming up here real quick, sometimes we (and when I say "we" I mean "I") don't communicate very well. Thereby creating some contention.
But we both went to work at 6, and no matter how much I hate going, driving to work allows me to talk to my Father in Heaven a lot more sincerely than I do any other time. I had a great time with the girls at work, and on the drive home, I was thanking God for His mercies. And suddenly I understood what God was doing with my life. It was like a window of understanding just opened up before me.
I've struggled at my work. It's my first job and I've had a really hard time adjusting. I thought it was a trial, but last night I realized it was a blessing from God. Work allows me to distract myself from everything else in my life, and to just serve other people. I get to see a lot of kids, and it makes me happy.
Long story short, I realized that my Father has been overflowing my cup with blessings lately. So many good things, and so many prayers answered. The Lord has truly been merciful to me. I have been given so much joy: I've had many people come to support me. I get to spend a lot of time with loyal friends, and I get to enjoy temple worship often. Knowing that the Lord has always answered my prayers and given me strength when I ask makes it easier to pay back the blessings by sending my boys on missions. In fact, it seems like a small thing to give. At least for today. :)
Anyways. Besides the fact that I'm emotionally scarred.
I've been a not-so-happy-camper in the past twenty four hours. Reason being: growing pains. As my best friend and I are trying to figure out how to adapt to the mission coming up here real quick, sometimes we (and when I say "we" I mean "I") don't communicate very well. Thereby creating some contention.
But we both went to work at 6, and no matter how much I hate going, driving to work allows me to talk to my Father in Heaven a lot more sincerely than I do any other time. I had a great time with the girls at work, and on the drive home, I was thanking God for His mercies. And suddenly I understood what God was doing with my life. It was like a window of understanding just opened up before me.
I've struggled at my work. It's my first job and I've had a really hard time adjusting. I thought it was a trial, but last night I realized it was a blessing from God. Work allows me to distract myself from everything else in my life, and to just serve other people. I get to see a lot of kids, and it makes me happy.
Long story short, I realized that my Father has been overflowing my cup with blessings lately. So many good things, and so many prayers answered. The Lord has truly been merciful to me. I have been given so much joy: I've had many people come to support me. I get to spend a lot of time with loyal friends, and I get to enjoy temple worship often. Knowing that the Lord has always answered my prayers and given me strength when I ask makes it easier to pay back the blessings by sending my boys on missions. In fact, it seems like a small thing to give. At least for today. :)
Sunday, June 8, 2014
They Come Back Happy
I've been praying a lot lately concerning comfort for the mission and today I saw God's hand and was reminded that He loves me.
But let me back up. First, you should know this guy-
In the stripes, he's Ben. Cute, ain't he? And in the black is Taylor, another good friend of mine but besides the point. So Ben is my...very close, very adorable.. best friend. He's leaving on his mission in July, as well as five of my other close friends. Actually the primary reason I started this blog is for a release of thought for me, and perhaps to provide solace for other "missionary girlfriends" or people with friends, neighbors, and countrymen with missionary relations.
Because it's hard to give up constant contact and communication and hugs with the people you care about most for two years, or maybe three. When you support them serving the Lord, and support their decision to spread the gospel of the true Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, but you still can't deny that little tug at your heart when you think about being alone.
I'm sending out five of my best friends, including Ben, to missions within the next three months. And I know I need the Lord's strength to do it.
Today in church I got to go and sing at someone else's ward, and it happened to be the homecoming for two very powerful, on-fire-with-the-Spirit missionaries. I guess I had felt before that a mission was kind of like the death of my friends. But these missionaries were strong, and they were wise, and they knew with all their hearts that this gospel is the true one. I want that for my boys. I want them to be happy in the service of the Lord, and to learn and gain a firm testimony that this is the true way, and the only way to get to eternal life with our Father in Heaven.
I recognize that the testimony of these returned missionaries was God partially answering my plea. Because I was in the right place at the right time, I was able to be comforted and see the end result of a mission on a young man's life, and perhaps on my life in the future. A mission creates confident, capable young people with true knowledge that Jesus is the Christ and that He loves us. So that makes it all a little easier, at least for today. :)
But let me back up. First, you should know this guy-
Because it's hard to give up constant contact and communication and hugs with the people you care about most for two years, or maybe three. When you support them serving the Lord, and support their decision to spread the gospel of the true Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, but you still can't deny that little tug at your heart when you think about being alone.
I'm sending out five of my best friends, including Ben, to missions within the next three months. And I know I need the Lord's strength to do it.
Today in church I got to go and sing at someone else's ward, and it happened to be the homecoming for two very powerful, on-fire-with-the-Spirit missionaries. I guess I had felt before that a mission was kind of like the death of my friends. But these missionaries were strong, and they were wise, and they knew with all their hearts that this gospel is the true one. I want that for my boys. I want them to be happy in the service of the Lord, and to learn and gain a firm testimony that this is the true way, and the only way to get to eternal life with our Father in Heaven.
I recognize that the testimony of these returned missionaries was God partially answering my plea. Because I was in the right place at the right time, I was able to be comforted and see the end result of a mission on a young man's life, and perhaps on my life in the future. A mission creates confident, capable young people with true knowledge that Jesus is the Christ and that He loves us. So that makes it all a little easier, at least for today. :)
Saturday, June 7, 2014
Concerning Graduation
So. Thus is begins.
Having graduated, uh, two days ago, the beginning of the rest of my life seems to be starting. So much of life is changing in the next two or three months.
I keep waiting to feel some kind of remorse for the death of my high school years or for the end of my childhood. I keep waiting to feel alone, or start missing my classmates. I thought I'd feel worried or concerned about the future, or scared to leave this all behind. But I honestly don't! I haven't yet! I never do!
I woke up this morning feeling good. I feel reeeaaal good. Like I can take on the world, like I could beat somebody up, like I could go to live at some random college by myself without knowing anything or having any money or any skills. I feel independent. I feel strong. I feel capable! That has never happened to me before! It feels AWESOME!
So to celebrate my new grownup feeling, I went to the temple. I just really felt like I had to be there today. So after some plans with friends fell through, I ended up just going there by myself. And sitting. And enjoying the Spirit of the temple. It was almost completely empty except for a couple other girls and myself, so I got to really open myself up to the guidance and comfort of the Holy Ghost. It's nice to know that the Lord loves me no matter where I am.
Having graduated, uh, two days ago, the beginning of the rest of my life seems to be starting. So much of life is changing in the next two or three months.
I keep waiting to feel some kind of remorse for the death of my high school years or for the end of my childhood. I keep waiting to feel alone, or start missing my classmates. I thought I'd feel worried or concerned about the future, or scared to leave this all behind. But I honestly don't! I haven't yet! I never do!
I woke up this morning feeling good. I feel reeeaaal good. Like I can take on the world, like I could beat somebody up, like I could go to live at some random college by myself without knowing anything or having any money or any skills. I feel independent. I feel strong. I feel capable! That has never happened to me before! It feels AWESOME!
So to celebrate my new grownup feeling, I went to the temple. I just really felt like I had to be there today. So after some plans with friends fell through, I ended up just going there by myself. And sitting. And enjoying the Spirit of the temple. It was almost completely empty except for a couple other girls and myself, so I got to really open myself up to the guidance and comfort of the Holy Ghost. It's nice to know that the Lord loves me no matter where I am.
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